Friday, December 17, 2010
Nobody tells you that being young feels like this.
I am overwhelmed with options. I think I make decisions more monumental than they probably are, and over analyze them too much...but I don't want regrets...who does, really.
People often give the advice, "follow your heart, do what you want to do...do what you love..." I wonder if anyone else feels like a stranger to themselves. I wish I knew what my heart wanted. I don't feel passionate about one career, I don't have the drive to do one thing for the rest of my life...I envy the people who do. I don't even have a hobby that I love more than anything.
Sigh. Praying today for God to give me vision. I want a cause, I want something to pursue wholeheartedly. Something absolutely worthwhile and life-changing.
The thing I care most about in my life are people...but maybe I need to care about more than that...do I?
I have no desire to be a career-driven woman, but maybe that's what I'm supposed to be.
Maybe it's time for my heart to grow older and my head to drive me more than my heart.
Ugh. I don't like being in this place. I really don't.
Posted by GLB