Monday, May 17, 2010

{holes}


wings pinned to cork
house without floors
holes in the chinking
beautiful carcass
of a living thing


1. I met the staff today, they are so kind.

2. I went for a run in the rain, it was exhilarating.

3. I can't stop listening to "The Decemberists".

4. It costs $25 to go to a movie here. Life is expensive.

5. "An enormous space had been opened that could not be filled by the one who had opened it." Henri Nouwen writes in a sentence what I waste pages on.

6. I tried candy today called "wine gums", I quite enjoyed them...and maybe they were supper...oops. I miss you Mum.

7. I put together a bookshelf backwards today. Then took it apart to put it together again. Sometimes the idea of having a husband isn't such a bad thought.

8. We watched "Blindside" and Sandra Bullock's character has become my new aspiration. I cried. I've really got to stop doing that.

9. I don't have hot water yet. Washing my hair in the kitchen sink with boiled water though, was a surprisingly soothing experience.

10. More facts I've learned from Beth. "Insecurity is most often covered up by perfection." and, "Insecurity lives in constant terror of loss." Could I just snip those ones from the book and paste them on my wall? Or maybe my forehead?

11. "And it was not your fault, but mine." -Mumford & Sons

8 comments:

Liz said...

Dearest Grace,

I miss you and am tremendously sorry that that I didn't say goodbye to you before you left. I know I would have cried. Sad tears for me. Happy tears for you. What a grand adventure you are beginning. What a fabulous way to start of post-college life. I am so happy to reading your musings and the things you are doing. Saw on Obi's blog that someone from New Zealand had looked at it, and figured it must have been you. :-) Know that I will be keeping you in my prayers. Our little family misses you. We came across a picture of you the other day and we were talking about you. If you are ever back in our neck of the woods...please stay with us! Much love and many hugs, Liz

Susan said...

I love reading your blog, Grace!!!

p.s. #11 is probably my favorite song

Anonymous said...

Hi Grace,

I know you don't know me but I stumbled upon your blog quite by accident. I'm reading a book right now called "Balance that works when life doesn't" by Susie Larson. When I read your post about insecurity, I KNEW that what I had read today wasn't only for myself, but for you too.
"I found that if I spent too much time on the mistakes, the devil tacked onto my train of thought a caboose filled with condemnation, accusation and insecurity. Did you know that insecurity is just another form of selfishness? When our thoughts are wrapped up in all that is wrong with us or all that we lack, we miss what's beautiful around us and in us."

Praying this incourages and inspires you.

GLB said...

Thanks so much! That's a great thought.

Lauren S. said...

Baby girl,

I loves seeing your thoughts from across the ocean. How I wish I could sit with you now and have a cup of tea, just being. I've been so encouraged/challenged by your posts regarding insecurity. God is teaching me much on this front lately, and much about selfishness. I liked the comment here from your anonymous friend. Such truth. Keep seeking such truth, it will slowly but truly dispel the lies we believe. I miss you sweet one. Know I am thinking of you and praying for you. And do not forget that when we are weakest He is most glorified. I'm so proud of you baby girl...

Much love,
Lauren

Kate said...

I cried in Blindside too. I think a lot of girls did. There is something really powerful in the role of being a mother to the desperate, even when others doubt your judgement.
I love hearing about your daily activities! I hope everything goes well and that you don't ever get too homesick. Life abroad is such an amazing experience, you'll probably look back on these days as some of your favorite memories.

GLB said...

Thanks for the encouragement!

meredith. said...

what a wise friend you have!